I feel FAT, but could I be developing ANOREXIA NERVOSA?
Ok, when I was very young, I developed an unhealthy relationship with food. Meaning I LOVED it, and could never get enough. On top of that I have always been a picky eater, and loved ice cream and fast food. So naturally that caught up with me and I got fat. I didn’t even realize I was. I looked in the mirror and never saw a fat person, just not a thin one. But it showed in all of my pictures, and I became VERY self-conscious. I had always been a very out going person, and then I went through my fat stage, where I cried when I ate food, but I still couldn’t stop. This was all when I was in 5th grade. Thankfully, the summer after, I went on a diet, and lost 20 lbs all by myself! I felt happier, healthier, but I still wasn’t thin…..and my self esteem was shot, and I became very shy around new people.
I went back to eating like a fairly normal person, and as I grew taller I gained that weight with me, but I still am not thin.
And the worst part, is that I was surrounded by people who were skinnier then me. All my friends are tall and naturally thin. (Like a model.) and my brother is always making fun of me. So I played around with diets, eating healthier, and exercising, but I always went back to normal.
Then one day I liked this guy. And I knew he wouldn’t like me. I wasn’t pretty enough, or skinny enough for him. And so when I was around him I was always nervous, and VERY self conscious. And one day he called me ugly. He was sarcastic, and joking, I knew, but it hurt…and I decided that I would impress him, and all my skinny friends, so I started eating less and less.
Yesterday, this is what I ate:
Breakfast: Special K 90 cal. bar
Lunch: PB & J French Toast Sand. (Rachael Ray Recipe)
Snack: Handful of Trail Mix
and that is it, and I have been eating like that for about a month now…and everyday its easier to eat less, and now I’m getting worried I have a problem. I never crave food anymore (unless it’s just sitting there right infront of me) and every time I eat something, all I think about is how fat I am….
I think about anorexia everyday…I feel worried by not eating, but I feel terrible when I do…
I know I’m a normal weight, I checked my BMI and I’m healthy…I’m 5’2”-5’3” and 112-115 lbs….and I am 13 years old…
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Susan Yarrawonga (280)
It sounds to me as if you’re developing an eating disorder. I’m no professional, but from documentaries i’ve watched and books i’ve read, it seems like you have symptoms of anorexia. Ask for help about it. Mom, dad, aunt sister–whoever. Keep in mind that the first thing your relatives will say is that you need to eat more, which is exactly what you don’t want to do, right? 115 for a thirteen year old is NOT fat whatsoever. Instead of eating less food, try to replace regular food with fruits and vegetables. The best thing for you right now is to get help before the situation gets worse.
Good luck, and PLEASE get the help you need.
darling I weight 263 pounds and am a size 18-20 and my best friend weighs 106 and is a TRIPLE ZERO (i didn’t even know they made that size) i struggled through a anorexic stage and lost 40 pounds but gained 50 back… try going on a diet like lean cuisine or jenny craig (i also did that when i was younger and lost some weight) hope this helps… please don’t hurt yourself!
Ok, for a start your BMI is saying you are a good weight. It’s just your consciousness that is letting you down. Go to one of your parents, and tell them this. They won’t lock you up in a anorexic camp – just tell them you are concerned. The sooner you tell someone, the better. But please try to eat more. Boys are pointless and useless – and they don’t see things the way us girls do.I don’t mean it to sound like a cliché, but if he calls you ugly or fat – sarcastic or not – he’s not worth your attention.
Hope this helps