Two questions:
#1 How old am I? (just a rough estimate will do)
#2 Am I ugly?

I’ve had a little bit of a self-esteem problem these days, and I guess I really need some honest feedback.

I’m 1.71m tall, still growing, 43.5kg. (Yes, I am underweight, however I do not have any eating disorders! I have a naturally high metabolic rate.) I must mention that I have a non-existent bust, and a slight moustache. My arms are also slightly hairy (i.e. fine hairs that are unnoticeable unless within 30cm proximity). I used to get picked on in first grade where everyone called me a ‘gorilla’ but that stopped now — I guess that comes with maturity.

Yup, I hope you can also give me any tips as to how I can improve the way I look. My self-esteem really needs a boost! Thank you!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/calliepufferfish

Oh dear, I forgot. XD

I don’t know if I want to go to a therapist because I don’t want to be judged too quickly since I’m recognizing everything and trying to fix it, it’s not like I continue it. It’s kind of a long story.

I’m a model, since I was very young I wanted to be a model, when I was 15 was when I actually took some action in trying to become one. I was excited because I always got compliments that I should be a model, anyway, very happy at 15 i tried to work on looking like famous supermodels. I printed photos of all my favorite pictures and hanged them in my bedroom walls and ceiling, they were the first thing I saw when I woke up, I was 5’1 and weighed 105. When I learned my model Idol was 5’11 and weighed 108 i bought a tape measure and started watching and measuring my waist, arms and legs etc. I started to do everything in eating and resting etc. to naturally grow taller and I did, (I’m now 5’10.5). I lived in New York, so finding a good agency wasn’t hard work, Next New York accepted me and I started. By the time I started I was 5’7 and 16 years old and weighed 100 lbs. After doing some runways I got the attention of some people and got so lucky I left home 16 to begin the career. A year later I saw how agents pushed other models into getting skinnier. I remember everyday I would stand in the mirror and talk to myself and say the same thing every night "Look at yourself, take a good look at yourself, you have such a pretty face, what a great personality you have, you’d be so much better if you were thin" Eventually I started changing the last word and changing it to thinner, then the thinnest etc. I’m not anorexic. I’m under weight yes, but not anorexic, and I don’t want to be, but there are models skinner than I am and it puts me down. At 18 I started to get little sleep and got unde eyes, I started smoking (I quit now) and I’d party with other people like me. I like my job, I’ve been featured in magazines twice, I like my salary and I met many inspiring people there.

I took a break from it and tried to get healthy again. I’m about 120, I’m 18 I finally started college, I want to be skinnier or at least as skinny as Jessica stam for instance, who’s my height (she’s 109). But I don’t want to be as skinny as I use to be, because most of my high school friends made jokes and everything and it was NOT fun. I feel depressed with how much weight I should lose, when I was at a good weight (110) I lived off of silk milk, water, berries and almonds.

If they did want to weigh you wouldent they weigh you with clothes on, so it might make it eisier if you weight is with clothes. Same goes for height. But would it make any difference if your weight fluctuates a lot?
It’s a Canadian passport, it asks for eye colour, hair colour, height and weight along with 2 photos with VERY specific intsructions for taking them, and the form sais you can be criminaly prosecuted if you lie.